It's Painfull (pt.3)

I cannot believe what has happened
these past few days.

I was supposed to leave the
day I posted my last blog && move
to Atlanta.
Since I didn't have a clue as to
what the situation was with this
person I had become so close to
I put the trip off to wait until I
knew anything at all.

He texted me around six pm or so
to tell me he had slept all day.
I asked how he was & told him I
was freaking out over the move.
Then I asked if I could talk to him.
He went crazy on me.

He said he didn't want to talk about pointless
shit for no reason blah blah blah.
So I got pissed and we began
to fight through text messages.

He was being mean and nasty.
I told him that he was the only one of my
friends that didn't want to seem to be
there for me when I'm having a hard
time.

He told me to tell someone who cares.
I said he couldn't push me away just
because I was moving && I am the
last person he needs to say that kind
of bullshit to.

So he calls me.
I was quite calm.
He told me I had created this
situation in my head && I was
being too clingy.

Now that would have made since to me
had I been the one saying how much I
loved him && wanted to be with him,
but that was him saying it. Also,
I had barely talked to him all week
so I don't know where "clingy" came from.

We fought over the phone for
almost two hours. I told him all I
wanted was to ask him one question
&& go on with my life. I thought I
at least deserved that. He told me I
didn't.

As far as I was concerned I was done.
I called one person who I thought would
understand. She was pissed && told everyone
what he had done. The next day one of my good
friend said he talked to her online saying I talk
about people && can't be trusted.

I texted him && told him to leave my
friends alone. He said I was trying to turn his
friends against him so he was going
to play my games. I said I hadn't
done anything && I wasn't going to
so it was all on him.

He wouldn't stop texting me.
I refused to respond.
So he calls.
My friend answered because I refused
to talk to him. He said we better
watch out && blah blah blah.

I get online && talk to this girl
he is friends with. He had told me
a week or to before "This girl is so cool,
you should talk to her, she's tha shit."

Well I had started talking to her
a day or two before he flipped out on me.
She asked how close I was with him; I told her
we were very close until the previous day.
All I said was "He has problems. I thought
I could help him." Then I told her he got
scared because he let us get too close.

That's all I said.

He calls me that night.
I didn't answer.
He left a message telling me to
leave him alone and stop stalking him.
Leave him alone, don't start driving
by his house, don't call or text him
blah blah blah or he'll call the cops.

I had been online talking to that girl
maybe 10 minutes and never said
one negative thing about him.

Then I left && spent the entire day with
two of my friends almost two hours away
from where he lives.

He told that girl online that I was a crazy
psycho && I was stalking him.
He started telling everyone I was a stalker.
I refused to say anything.

I can't even wrap my head around
what it is exactly he is doing,
but I won't have any part of it.

He is crazy.
I could have understood
him thinking I was stalking him
online or something because I was
talking to that girl, but he even
told her that he never told me
she was cool...

What would that even matter?

I love how I am stalking him
while in the process of moving
eight hours away.




This is a mess.